Follow you heart! Of course, is sounds inspiring. I will do exactly that, but what does it mean? I have all these obstacles in my way for which I have logical justifications, you know? I need money for everything I can envision, most of all my plans seem to land on monetary conditions.  You are a fool, just asking to be mocked. You’d better fake your pain or shortcomings, you hear me? The ego will say this and be the eternal inventor of the unguarded bullshit without asking permission, it has memorized the entire book of excuses, studied your feelings and planted in your mind the perfect sense to hold on to fears. Fear is there to focus our attention on the thin line between courage and stupidity, not to be under the supervision of ego. Some say that fear is an illusion, what are they afraid of, nothing!? I unpretentiously think frequently about fear, feeling it even, and… hiding it or not, I will push through it. Is just something I mastered for the love of self. That being said, I cannot push through illusions even if I wanted. Illusions are empty acts of deceitfulness, roaming from a thought to another – I would just be wasting my time chasing nothingness. If I know this much, fear is not an illusion, it can’t be if my intentions are to be fear free. This sounds a lot like “If you immediately know the candle light is fire, then the meal was cooked a long time ago”. Fear doesn’t exist (in the form that is perceived)… only after I kill it, I overcome it, we have to conquer the bloody thing to be free of it. Fear is real, don’t get confused. Fear is what heroes brag about when they mock the danger. It just happens that it disappears like a miracle after we face it, isn’t this illusion ironic? More like a confusion, mind you. One thing is clear and gets even clearer, if there is such thing, fighting fears by face them with courage and intelligence is as simple and successful as thought. I added intelligence because, like any subject, we can’t face shit unprepared. We must have knowledge, to study our fear, we can’t just decide to face the fear of water before learning how to swim. Here is where the line between courage and stupidity stands. A lighter example would be the fear of talking to people (social phobia), the fix is at a thought distance – I had that and it took me a few seconds to talk to people and few days to get over my stuttering embarrassment. It took a lot of me to do it beforehand, but here is where the hero is called to do its duty. My ego pounded me hard with countless reasons, I’ve heard it in great pain, but we both are better off now.

To follow you heart, fear must be enclosed in healthy beliefs, otherwise, the ego will dance on your empty pockets and will disguise your dreams by altering your awareness. Fear must be eliminated from the heart because the heart must be filled up with love in due course. When I had many fears, I had a tiny amount of love, I’ve noticed the switch as I was cutting away my fears from my being. If you think about yourself that you are a victim of circumstances, you’re not, is just another fear you have to face. This is it, is not much to it if you think about it – fill up your heart with love and do as you’re inspired by it. Becoming a better person to be able to hold love inside yourself, is another story, for another night. Feel your anger, there is much darkness pretending to be light. Don’t encourage the wrong feelings.

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Roberto Palu