They say that the universe has no sense of humor or it doesn’t understand sarcasm. First of all, the universe should have the most experience of life, directly proportional with ageing, as experience itself assembles together the building blocks of sarcasm, like: knowledge, intelligence, sensibility, insightfulness and such. Hence, as you get wiser, you should develop a good and healthy sense of humor and sarcasm. All forms, biological or artificial, capable of artistic expressions, must have humor and sarcasm as a means of manifesting an idea from the ether. The joke could be on me for believing that my intricate thinking could be deciphered by the universe to give me the correct feedback I am expecting. But I don’t think so. Well… I am still gathering facts and feelings on the subject, I know my own level of stupidity, and if I don’t, I can sense it. Secondly, what exactly do we know about the universe? We pray to Gods, we measure it with complicated instruments and mathematical formulas and we let our hearts and minds free trough the universe, to search for truth and/or love, expecting answers and knowledge in return. Let me tell you, as far as I am concerned, the universe is pulling pranks on me all the time, it does understand sarcasm. Or I’m just very good at ignoring my multiple personality, believing that the feedback I am receiving is not from my own insanity.

I stay away from my sarcasm, trying my best I found it to be detrimental to my mental health, I can’t get rid of it completely since intelligence is a form of sarcasm in itself, and I would like to have as much intelligence as I can. But… I am searching for a balanced way to express myself with dignity and common sense. Take love, for example, would be a miracle to have it if I wouldn’t understand it, but I do, and this knowledge is making me impossible to achieve love, because I see lies and manipulations even before the first word. I would consider it a miracle, to find another person with the understanding of love as I, but everybody has this twisted idea that love is a mean to an end. Fuck that! Thinking that, does the universe understand sarcasm? I would say so, it takes you through painful challenges because you want to have love, but, to have it, you must understand it before anything else. The pain is not intentional, I am certain of that, pain is only because our reluctance in accepting the truths. After I understood love, I realized I could never have it, take that for sarcasm. Honesty, loyalty, kindness or respect are characteristics of love and I’ve searched for them until found myself too old to even accept it. I don’t find it funny!

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Roberto Palu